The Land of Broken Sync: Coping with COVID-19, Mercury Retrograde, Lunar Eclipses and Full Moons!
It is July. But, it doesn’t feel any specific month, even with the heat pounding and the bright sunshine. I am trying to busy myself with work, creativity and connections to push this awkward feeling aside — that feeling that includes not feeling like myself, a vague strangeness that has overcome me. For the past few days, it has been a barrage of weird dreams, broken sleep, skipped meals, high anxiety and an intense surreal gridlock. Although 2019 proved to be a year of massive changes, I long for 2019 before we all lost our sense of place and predictability. As the saying goes, “If I had a dollar…” for each time I looked back at how life was a year ago and longed for it…I would be a billionaire.
Knowing that full moons, Mercury in retrograde and lunar eclipses peered around the corner, on top of the lingering COVID-19 issues, I expected to feel off. As a matter of fact, many apps and stories on the Internet told me to prepare for it. I thought I was prepared. I was wrong.
How do we deal with our broken sync and how do we keep from letting it break us? That notion plagued my thoughts for the past few days and writing about it and sharing it seems the therapeutic choice.
When COVID-19 reared its ugly head, I watched from afar as China and other countries were trying to wrangle the monster. When it made its grand entrance into the US, my hopes were that we would manage it (remember the Ebola cases in the US?) and it would not ravage us. I was wrong. So, when it became apparent that we needed to take safety measures and among those measures included to stay home, it was a weird relief. In other words, my once extroverted self that had become more introverted saw this as a grand opportunity to have an excuse to stay home, be more creative and work on my ideas. Never once did it occur to me that this tiny virus would be such a monumental game-changer. It did not dawn on me so many would get sick, pass away, lose jobs, have income issues, increased mental issues as well as rampant issues with suicide, addiction and domestic violence. Was I not smart…